Now she won't miss me anytime soon. When I got back to work, I'm the one missing someone and almost everyday during the first month, phew...I would literally cry and laugh while shrinking myself on the sofa trying to think what to do, reasoning out if I actually need to do something regarding our current arrangement. Psalm stayed with mom when I went back to work. I stayed in Manda (like 1.5hrs away from QC) during work days. I only get to see Psalm during the weekends. For most of moms I know you'll question this setup (and believe me I do too).
I would want to take Psalm with us and just hire a babysitter to look out for him. I guess this setup is ideal and this is what I thought so when we're just planning for a baby. But when Psalm came everything changed. All things I know turned the other way around. I now prefer having my mom and my Tita handle my little boy. I forgot how I once thought I'll bring my boy with me and have a stranger take care of him. Well at least for now...at least when he's not yet able to tell when the yaya did something to him.
It's like balancing pros and cons...more like weighing what's for Psalm and what's for us. I would cry thinking I'm not there with him when he's out sleeping at night. I'm not there when he took that first cookie bite (hushhush). It's a shame I'll wake up dreaming about his smile, content on watching his videos on my phone. Oh well, I
But heck yeah, we need to push a little harder for now. I guess I'd just look forward to this weekly meetups with my baby. I can't wait to see him now.
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